Wednesday, November 02, 2011

Info age melt down!

Its like infinity to try and keep up with all the Social networking sites and passwords and linking them together to keep things under control.
I am trying to have two gmail accounts to avoid too much email for family and friends verses my Art business.
Facebook blocked me from my name sake Facebook account, which had over 4 thousand contacts, I feel naked with out access to this.
I got a new pc and I cant seem to link my blackberry appropriately to my gmail accounts.
My head is spinning in download mode!!!!
stop the madness!!
whatever happen to a letter or a phone call!
I miss those days of simplicity..
who ever said that the information age was easier was probably born after 1979 !

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Dead synaps

I have heard people say this and when I hear it I just want to slap them and say " sure you do".
Then I realized I secretly say those words to myself often. There is that nagging self deprecating dialog creeping up again inside my mind telling ME no who do you think you are you cannot do that!
Lately my brain doesn't seem to be running on all cylinders, perhaps its my Peri-menopause getting the best of me? Or just no messages getting processed via the right hemisphere these days. What makes me think I can do this? Who am I in my right brain dominance anyway?
I look in the mirror and I see this lumpish overweight 40 something woman with signs of aging everyday who doesn't like what is staring back at her. And its not vanity as much as it is a disappointment in self . Sure I need to loose those extra pounds but why do I have them in the first place? that's the question.
Aging in my face doesn't really bug me at all and I actually welcome the gray hair, I have been trying to achieve that tone since I was a teenager. No I have no fear of getting older in fact I welcome the wisdom.
That's it! that's the problem I see when I look into the mirror! I dont feel like I am exercising my wisdom here! What is this Artist thing, why is it in me, what is its driving force and why does it seem to be at the very core of my being. As if with out it I might die unhappy.
Why do people like us do this, create thing? I could say that I am a right brain dominant and I wish I could actually say instead that my mind synchronizes. I am not sure mine does, in fact there are huge gaps in retrieval of information I know sits in their but because my corpus collosum seems to be lacking in proper communication skills I find myself stumped much of the time creatively.
Because I feel that I lack something-I seem to be
Vehemently afraid of failing and therefore instead of pushing for those "some would say" more lofty goals I keep my expectations low. However at this time in my life I do feel as though there simply is nothing to loose but gain.
I will make an attempt to re-ignite those synaps'
So I am committed to a journal of thoughts and memories to then later work out pros or scenes or chapters.
I have been told that one's first attempts at writing usually "suck" to put it plainly. So one needs to just START, and its probably important to not judge self.
As for my physical creativity I will decide soon where to dedicate my study and focus for one year. This will be difficult for me to manage because I love to touch things and explore new things but often it just spreads me to thin. Its time to just see where this takes me.

Friday, January 01, 2010

resolutions oh AARRGGHHHGHGHG !

Tis the New Year! I am a year older, my Husband is a year older {50} actually and I successfully threw him his first surprise party all 70's style..And tomorrow our daughter is a year older!!! I think the poor dog actually ages seven years.... Holiday's are behind us and now its time to unlight the Xmas tree and take down all the trimmings and put it all up in the rafters for Next Year..Which incidentally will be here before you can actually finish reading this silly post!

Do you remember how long a year felt when you were like nine years old.! Or even 15.

My daughter will turn is turning 17 in a couple of days and she tells me the other day; "mom, this totally sucks I cant even believe this year went so fast"
I recall one morning while getting her ready for daycare, she was 4, I look up at her face and she had big tears in her eyes and says to me "momma I don't want to grow up, I don't" . I will never ever forget that morning as long as I live. She was pretty keen on how life worked at a young age and I don't blame her for not wanting to grow up. That is why I don't pressure her to get a job or drive yet. we just explain to her to concentrate on her GPA for now. When we achieve graduation we will take the other steps towards the future. Our son who is 20 graduated tech school in the Air force and is stationed in Washington State. I have a blackberry phone with all the bells and whistles now and texting which I never thought I would do... HA! never say never!
Resolutions. I am filled with contempt when I think of New Years resolutions, and so I am left feeling like Andy Rooney on this one. I don't see the point...Some people say "resolutions were made to be broken" or they will say so this year I will do this and this and this and this.
What if you don't hold up to your resolutions... then don't you end up feeling like crap...... ?
My husband actually made a resolution for ME. I tried to explain, no you don't make them FOR people, its an individual thing. I hate people who tell me what my New Year resolutions SHOULD be toooooo! What is that! I feel like saying; "Hey mind your own flippin business" " Keep track of your own shortcomings pal, leave me to my own, thank you very much!!!!
I don't know it just spells disaster to me...
But in retrospect, perhaps I am a secret resolution er after all and just didn't realise it....?
I do have annual goals that I really think hard about and I do put them in list order based on attainability. But I don't do it TODAY I wait until I have a reasonable realistic list and I print it out and hang it on my studio wall. Through out the year I re-visit and if needed revise here and there THE LIST. I also cross out achieved goals as the year goes, which is extremely enjoyable!!!
So I don't think this day should indicate THE DAY for change, I think it should come when it works for the individual AND I am going to Call it Annual Gaol List....
so there...

Friday, November 27, 2009


As I sit, in front of my monitor, my art deadlines are beckoning me hither!
But, being in the food coma that I am, I am sleepy stupid. So it is much easier to just dork out.
However, I now realize that soon I will hear the alarm-@ 6am . I will jump from my
sweat- ed slumber and brush my teetheeeez, put on some undies and straggle out the door..
For what you ask ?
ONLY this year it is for ME...I am going to 2 locations. One is actually one of my jobs, we open @ 6am I am excited to get an arty - Ott light for 19.99, which is normally 60.00 so that's an even better deal than with a coupon.! . And I get an added discount... Then off to a nameless women's clothing store to get 2 sweaters for five dollars each and I have a 20 dollar coupon!!!! and some free stuff. Yay...
After that my Art is going to be starring me down saying "finish me pleeeeeeze" as I have a big show in Smell A in less than a week and I don't even think I am 40% ready Oh my...
So I will tip toe past the studio quickly and jump back into bed!
Then wake up ................ yuck.........
Then get ready for work, yes I AM WORKING ON BLACK FRIDAY
9 hours later, I will attempt to put in some time at the Art Table.... Then EAT LEFTOVERS....

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Operator Error; self retardation disease

I cant believe how long its been since my last POST ! !
I dunno maybe it's the two part time jobs and the incessant-never-en
ding arm itching and night sweats that prevent me from sleeping at all anymore.
Or it could be that, on top of those things I am trying desperately to meet Art deadlines a
nd continue a spiritual relationship with God. Oh and dont forget keeping up with my
teenager and sparing a few fluttering moments with my husband...
For some reason I completely forgot how to blog, I forgot my
password and how to access it. I just totally forgot -brain
So for those of you who commented I am so sorry, thank you for your support and
please excuse my dorkness. Now I see the triggers and don't foresee it happening
again...I have felt so disconnected lately....
I am happy to report that I have been one of the Artist chosen to work w
ith the Autism Research Institute in San Diego to help communicate about the disease through local Art Functions and events. Currently on display, there are a few steampunk pieces left for sale @ the Edgeware Gallery. 4186 Adams Ave. San Diego CA, 92116

I will be displaying some cool Indy Christmas Ornementals for the Tree In NorthPark
San Diego @ The "Next Door Gallery"
2963 Beech Street
San Diego • 92102
(619) 233-6679
above photo only reflects one kind, I have a few more I am cooking up!!
For the first time I am participating in the second annual CRAFT RIOT.
I am totally Psyched for this one!!!
But I totally have A lot of work to do!!!!!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Assemblage Workshop

Do you live in Southern California?
Come visit me!!!
Steampunk Assemblage w/Brittany - $40.00
Added by Stampfully Yours
Event Details
Time: October 24, 2009 from 10am to 1pmLocation: Stampfully YoursStreet: 252 East Grand Ave.City/Town: Escondido, CA 92025Phone: 760-480-8114Event Type: workshopsOrganized

Steampunk: A sub-genre of fantasy and speculative fiction that came into prominence in the 1980s and early 1990s. The term denotes works set in an era or world where steam power is still widely used—usually the 19th century, and often Victorian era England.
Nicho: Made from mixed media and traditionally combine elements from Roman Catholicism, mestizo spirituality, and popular culture.
Attend this workshop and contribute to being "green" by recycling tin cans and turning them into wonderful works of art!Brittany will share with you various paint over and ink techniques. You'll also be using some found objects such as wire and broken jewels to create your nicho "Steampunk" style.
Supply List:
please bring your favorite adhesive, photocoppies of any personal pictures or letters, scissors, needle-nose pliers, a hammer and any broken jewelry to personalize your creation.
Other important workshop information:
*You may register in person, or by calling 760-480-8114.
Payment is due at the time of registration.
*Please note, reservations cannot be accepted via email.
*Registration will be accepted through 4:30 pm on Oct. 22, although the earlier you register, the better.
*A minimum 48 hour notice of cancellation is required to receive a store credit
I would love love to meet you